Well, I'm back again.
Yes again, I keep coming back, and making new accounts.
And for what? Well, it's for my own sanity.
I'm crazy, psychotic, and a danger to myself and everyone around me.
And right at the center of my insanity lies the boy who drives me absolutely crazy.
One touch.
One scent.
One look.
Its all it takes to send me completely overboard.
And yet I need him to survive.
One day without seeing his face and I'm all sorts of crazy.
I'm angry;
sad;
frustrated;
restless;
dangerous;
When I said I was a danger to myself and others it wasn't a lie.
I'm crazy.
I'm in this twisted world of obsessed attraction and affection,
And I'm so far in,
That there's no way of reaching me now.
Past the point of no return,
Past all thoughts of hope.
So that;
Even when I do see him, I'm not any better.
I'm angry;
upset;
restless;
obsessive;
And I don't know what to do about it.
I tried being his friend.
It was a mistake.
I tried ignoring him.
It only caused me more confusion.
I tried confronting him.
It was disastrous.
So now you see at the cross roads I stand at.
I can push him out of my mind sure,
But all it takes is just one little thing to throw the trigger
And I'm back, again.
Maybe I need closure?
We never did date, hell we never became anything
There's still no words to describe us.
I guess I'll settle for
Classmates
I was doing fine, almost the whole year and I managed to stay cool and collected.
I managed not to see him without avoiding him,
But now?
I see him everywhere and its not doing any good for me.
I don't think I can ever just get over him.
Not without extensive amounts of therapy at least.
And it makes me sad.
I want to go back,
More than anything in this word.
Send me back a few years to the start of high school
And then maybe I can stop my self from making so many mistakes.
And stop myself from
falling for him.
The one thing I really need,
Is the one thing he'll never give me.
I need him to tell me he hates me.
That we never had a chance and we never will.
Its bad enough that he;
Haunts my past,
Haunts my mind,
Haunts my dreams.
I don't need him taking over anything else in my life.
It's such a twisted feeling.
I care for him,
My heart aches for him,
And yet I absolutely hate him with a passion.
I'm alone in this fight for sanity,
And I really wish I wasn't.
This is the hardest thing you could ever dream of.
Its terrifying.
It's my life.
Yes again, I keep coming back, and making new accounts.
And for what? Well, it's for my own sanity.
I'm crazy, psychotic, and a danger to myself and everyone around me.
And right at the center of my insanity lies the boy who drives me absolutely crazy.
One touch.
One scent.
One look.
Its all it takes to send me completely overboard.
And yet I need him to survive.
One day without seeing his face and I'm all sorts of crazy.
I'm angry;
sad;
frustrated;
restless;
dangerous;
When I said I was a danger to myself and others it wasn't a lie.
I'm crazy.
I'm in this twisted world of obsessed attraction and affection,
And I'm so far in,
That there's no way of reaching me now.
Past the point of no return,
Past all thoughts of hope.
So that;
Even when I do see him, I'm not any better.
I'm angry;
upset;
restless;
obsessive;
And I don't know what to do about it.
I tried being his friend.
It was a mistake.
I tried ignoring him.
It only caused me more confusion.
I tried confronting him.
It was disastrous.
So now you see at the cross roads I stand at.
I can push him out of my mind sure,
But all it takes is just one little thing to throw the trigger
And I'm back, again.
Maybe I need closure?
We never did date, hell we never became anything
There's still no words to describe us.
I guess I'll settle for
Classmates
I was doing fine, almost the whole year and I managed to stay cool and collected.
I managed not to see him without avoiding him,
But now?
I see him everywhere and its not doing any good for me.
I don't think I can ever just get over him.
Not without extensive amounts of therapy at least.
And it makes me sad.
I want to go back,
More than anything in this word.
Send me back a few years to the start of high school
And then maybe I can stop my self from making so many mistakes.
And stop myself from
falling for him.
The one thing I really need,
Is the one thing he'll never give me.
I need him to tell me he hates me.
That we never had a chance and we never will.
Its bad enough that he;
Haunts my past,
Haunts my mind,
Haunts my dreams.
I don't need him taking over anything else in my life.
It's such a twisted feeling.
I care for him,
My heart aches for him,
And yet I absolutely hate him with a passion.
I'm alone in this fight for sanity,
And I really wish I wasn't.
This is the hardest thing you could ever dream of.
Its terrifying.
It's my life.
